My Healing Journey

Healing Journey

I've been on a healing journey for almost my entire life.  I experienced a lot of trauma as a child and was left with anger issues. I was aggressive, negative, acted out and was disrespectful; I failed grades because of my distraction and became a high school drop out.  I was overweight and consumed by my negativity, but one day took my first step on this healing journey when I decided I was going to change that, and myself.  I worked out alot and walked, the exercise made me less aggressive and I began to cultivate self love. Shortly after taking control of my health I was blessed with the birth of a lovely son. My son taught me so many things, and inspired me on my journey.  I studied and worked to get my G.E.D. and continue my self-improvement. He helped me become nurturing, caring; he taught me about love, self love, love for another human, strength.  I began to practice yoga and working with chakra stones, began a passionate study of reiki, lost my unhealthy weight and became fit. However, at the same time I was making these gains I was hit with devastating news: my father was diagnosed with Huntington's Disease, a neurodegenerative genetic disease - watching this disease progress in him took a huge toll on my family.  I started to lose ground on my self-development and declined emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually.  I lost my way.  My negative thinking and toxic habits started up again, but on a completely different level.. .. I was working at a job I hated, and I knew that to grow I had to change directions.  Then I found massage therapy… I lost my father right before I started school, but still I traveled everyday from warren to Erie, struggling as a single mother and not having a real home. Depression was real, and I was filled with a self-destructive fire - even as I was learning to heal, I hated people because I hated myself.  All I knew was that I had to keep trying, had to rise up to answer my drive towards growth…and it got easier.  Being at school, learning massage as well as respect, and making friends helped me see a brighter future. I was kind to everyone, even if we barely talked. Throughout my healing process I remained numb, and when I opened up to others they were shocked at my personal negativity. I kept my commitment to massage, and realized how healing touch can be. Emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually I became stronger; anxiety and depression decreased, I came more out of my shell. Laughter entered my life, and I felt I had finally found a home. I made a FRAMILY- friends that are family. I became a class clown again, like in high school, but this time in a respectful way.  My massage family became stronger - I became stronger.  I was unsure till today, over a year after graduating and working in the field, what kind of massage therapist I am.  But now I can confidently say: I am A HEALER!  I strive to use massage to help heal trauma to the mind, body and soul as it did for me!  My self healing journey continues, and has grown to include healing others.  Every time I get knocked down I use it as a tool for my practice to help others. I am a Reiki level 3 (Master level - soon to be a reiki teacher)  massage therapist, and healer. I am Karuna Healing Hands - Compassionate hands focused on restoring my clients!  My practice grows as I find and help those seeking to undo the holistic effects of trauma. So please, keep in good health. Practice mindfulness, and patience will come along the way, I offer many services that can help you along this journey, and I hope to have helping you as part of my own path forward.

 

Nameste